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Finally Home........

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  Imagine you are living in a lovely place, simply full of joy and peace. A place that calm you down after a lot of drama through out your day. People tend to enjoy going to a cafe, resort, or hostel for their short vacation; I admit that I am one of them as well. I love to surround myself in a peaceful shelter, simply quiet with greenery from the outside.   In Mid 2021, I and my fiance decided to have a house built back in the village, the hometown where I grew up. No doubt, I love to do things differently, I have things planned ahead of time, and follow my imagination. I started to lay down my idea and thought and picturing it; none of my people like the idea at the first time. Let's be a bit selfish here, or I would say "Trust me, you'd love it once it's done!" Applying my imagination to build the whole house actually took tons of energy to convince people who help decide, especially parents :D   Later on, I am glad that the decision of the design has been

A curse or a life journey?

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  March-July 2022... Went through an unexpected occasion lately? This article is meant to boost extra energy to the vulnerable who went through the unpredictable moment and barely recognize their true self because sh*t happened in life. In my early 20s, I was trying to live right, mainly focused on the choice of food, the routine I create a long with reading and exercising a little. The whole point was trying not to get off the hook of being healthy. Back in the day, my skin was not all that smooth or soft like a baby but it ain't cause any trouble until late 2021. It turned worse from regular acne to cystic type. For those who experience this type of thing, it is not just the beauty you care about, but the pain and pressure you fully take during the process. You won't be able to touch your face with your hand, but only your fingertip. You might not feel comfortable laying your head on the soft pillow, because it felt like your whole face got infected. There was frustration and

I paused - What have happened to me?

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  In the past, I taught myself to live as a fast-burning candle. It took a lot of effort to inspire myself of limitless, unstoppable, hustling, keep pushing, using time effectively bla-bla-bla. In a sudden, until something happened to me mentally, the illness that you can't witness the evidence from all the scanning or physical proof. I used to be super healthy, strong, and independent; I was not an athlete but at least I could do half marathon and other physical fitness which allow me to stay fit and healthy. I have heard a lot of times that your intellectual issue could badly affect your everything, but I haven't paid enough attention to the detail. I might live healthy physically, including my diet and daily fitness, but I was too hard on myself, mentally. I learn to say No to little things, but at some points still, accept the bigger project that possibly contributes a larger impact.   I'm not trying to slow you down from what you are currently holding right now, but on

Fail early!

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I personally was taught to avoid making mistakes for almost my entire life and recognized it as the most terrifying thing. It is good somehow, but I learned that scare of making different in life is losing so much great opportunities you can think of. I am the type of person who might get the lowest score in terms of taking the risk because I took things seriously and from time to time is cautious. Later on, I gave myself more carefree space for adventure to try new things and making manageable mistakes along the journey. As my previous blog mention that I was not socialized enough in my teenage life where I limit my networking and hesitation to do things that I was capable of. Speaking of which, I was afraid of failing, mocking, judging, and every other things. Up until now, the experiences taught me the question "What if?". Asking myself this question helps me reflect on my past and current situation to decide what the next direction of life should look like.    I am gratef

Who to measure your beauty standard?

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Love the pool but didn't know how to swim yet :D   There are a million questions that might come to your head when you heard people from place to place define their beauty preference. The first reaction of yourself starts to come up when those people did not mention what you have owned in their categories.  How do you feel when you first hearing the criticism? Who should define all these beauty standards for you? How to measure it? Living in the region of skin bleaching makes people felt self-doubt from day to day and wish to do whatever to make themselves look exactly belong to the group of people they're living in. It is not a crime to make yourself look decent and attractive, but the question is "Is it worth it?" What would be worse spending too much time on one thing and haven't paid enough attention to another? This article is not to crush the readers, but to smash few terrible habits/ perspective and open the door to see things differently. I went through a